No More Drama In My Life

When I was in high school the song No More Drama by Mary J. Blige was one of my favorites. I had tons and tons of drama! Well drama had tons of me. I did not feed into it or respond to the people who clearly hated me I just ignored. Because of all of the mess in high school I hate drama now. That's one reason I love little kids so much, they don't have drama other than someone won't be their friend and 3 minutes later you see them running around together. But, apparently drama loves me! It just follows me around. Yes there are times that I make mistakes or bad decisions but never with a bad intent or never with the intent to create drama. Sometimes being nice and having a big heart gets me in a lot of trouble. I am back to having tons of drama, which is just flat out embarrassing because I am way too old for that mess.

The point is, it's a new year. I decided back at the beginning of the new year that I wanted to have a new years resolution to focus on me more. I have a hard time sometimes feeling "trapped" in my town and feeling alone and that I don't have anyone period that is my person. So my new year's resolution is to focus on me and being happy and content with my life no matter where I am or who is, or in my case, isn't in my life.

And by coming to this decision I also realized that I do have a "my person". My Savior. I've said before that I'm not a good judge of character and most if not all the guys who have been in my life are just plain not good guys. Well how it hit me that I have a friend who gets excited every time He hears from me. He will never be disrespectful to me. He will never put me down. He will never lie to me. He loves me more than anyone else possibly could. He will never flake out on me or say he is going to be there and disappear. How could I not see before that He is "my person"? He's wonderful and awesome and He wants to absolute best for me. He will never take advantage of me. How great is that? So I am focusing on God this year. Keeping God first in my life and trusting Him with whatever may come my way. My goal this year, no matter what or who comes my way, is to focus on my life and my relationship with the best friend I could possibly have.

On a side note of my progress with the eating and exercising. My weigh day is Wednesday. I weighed the 29th of December and that was my starting weight. I started Jan. 1st and weighed again on Jan. 4th. I didn't update that weight on here because it hadn't been a full week since I had started my new lifestyle. However, I was happy with what the scale said on the 4th and today being the 9th, I am happy with the way my clothes feel. I will try my best to write Wednesday and let you all know how much I have lost and see if I met my goal. Fingers crossed! :)

Please pray for the drama to go away from my life. I just want to be left alone. Please pray that when I do start feeling lonely that I always know that I have someone in my life who loves me more that anyone else and who never leaves my side.  Thanks!