I'm really kind of terrible at updating this...not because I don't want to, just because I have a hard time sitting down to actually do it. I look at everyone else's blogs that I read and they always have cute pictures of their families or projects or food and I just don't. ....something to work on!
Since I last posted anything a lot has happened. The best, of course, being that we went on vacation!! Yay! That was great, even though it rained, no, it flooded 2 days we were there - we still had a blast. I do have a few pictures that maybe I will put up very soon ;)
I actually started the week off doing great on vacation. I was watching what I was eating and how much and I was walking tons and doing small workouts. Then came the rain, and the boredom, and there was noting else to do but eat. Haha. At least in my mind. All in all though I don't think I did too bad.
One of my favorite blogs to read is PeanutButter Fingers and while I was on vacation she was blogging about FitBlog, a blogging conference for those who blog about healthy lifestyles and fitness. I actually loved reading all about it and she linked some of her friends who also blog and that has been wonderful. I updated my list today and I am hoping that reading all of the blogs from those who live a healthy lifestyle will motivate me to do so as well.
I am now headed to the school to try to get my classroom in order. :) I'm so looking forward to my new crop of mini human beings who steal my heart. And, I'm kind of -in a weird way counting down until open house so that I can see my sweet kids from last year. They definitely have a spot in my heart.
Coming soon....hopefully ;) An entry dedicated to my wedding planning and ideas :)
:)
Monday, July 15, 2013
Monday, June 24, 2013
A New View Point
This weekend was an eye opener for sure! Saturday morning I went with my mom and sister to David's Bridal to try on wedding dresses!! Very exciting! It was actually a little surreal. Most girls think of their wedding growing up and what it will be like to try on dresses and make decisions about that special day and I was no different. Sometimes I feel like I have my wedding all planned out and was just waiting on the right guy.
And yes, while I did think of my wedding throughout the years I just never really felt like I would ever have one. I never had a deep down feeling that I would without a doubt find that one special guy for me. I have had my fair share of not so great guys and some great guys just not great for me guys. That is until Frankie :)
So, yes trying on dresses and thinking about my wedding Saturday in such a real way was definitely a surreal moment for me. It was also a kick in the butt moment as well. My mom and my sister took pictures of me in every dress I tried on and looking at myself in those pictures was like someone finally hit me over the head and said "look at yourself, you look horrible."
I am not just being mean to myself and having a bad body image like so many people do these days, especially young people; I just know when I look and feel my best and it is definitely, without a doubt, not now! These pictures have been like a gift from God, telling me to take control of myself and fix myself. I do realize that sounds really dramatic. However, I also know that from a doctor's standpoint I would be considered overweight. There are some people who are constantly saying "you look good" and "you don't need to lose anything" which frankly makes me mad and hurts my feelings. I don't look good and quit telling me I do. There are also people who say "you've gained a lot of weight" and "you better hurry up and lose weight before you get fat" which hurts my feels as well.
In the past when I've been all about losing weight and getting in shape its really been about vanity reasons and my appearance. This time it is different. I mean of course I want to look good, especially for my wedding day, but that is not what is really driving me to get healthy. My wedding day is driving me to lose weight naturally. What comes after the wedding is what is driving me to get healthy. I don't feel healthy. I feel heavy and bloated and yucky about 90% of the time. Not only does that make me feel gross but it also scares me. Me and Frankie want kids. Frankie really wants kids and I know he will be such an incredible dad. I am worried that at this weight and feeling this unhealthy will make it hard for me to get pregnant. And lets be honest, we can't wait too long because neither one of us are spring chickens. (haha I made myself chuckle a little bit at that) I have this really can't kick it strange feeling that I am going to have a hard time getting pregnant. My parents had a hard time but my sister never really did with both of her boys. I can't afford to wait years and years to get pregnant because we aren't that young.
I am hoping and feeling that if I change my habits around and make myself a healthier weight and all around person that I won't have as hard as a time as I think I will. So, on that note I am trying to best to make better choices when it comes to food. I whole-heartedly believe that losing weight is 80/20. Nutrition and diet is 80% of it and exercise is 20%. I enjoy exercising but I want to see results so that means I am going to have to eat better. In the past I would get really crazy and decide that I was going to cut out all kinds of things and eat clean which works for a lot of people but I would also fall off my little clean eating wagon. So... I am going to approach it like the 80/20 rule. I will make healthy eating decisions 80% of the week and allow myself 20% to fall back on. That way I know I am free to still indulge a little bit but just a little bit.
This morning I am off to a good start. I went to the gym and did 30 full minutes of cardio switching the resistance up on the elliptical machine and also switching up going forwards and backwards. That helps me not get bored and it also helps my heart rate change (almost like an interval workout which is good for fat-loss) Plus I did about 20 to 30 minutes working abs and shoulders. For breakfast I made a smoothie!! Very different for me. I found the recipe on one of my favorite blogs and I actually liked it but I did not like the banana taste to it so I will try to tweak it to make it work for me.
Here's to a new view point of getting healthy... :)
And yes, while I did think of my wedding throughout the years I just never really felt like I would ever have one. I never had a deep down feeling that I would without a doubt find that one special guy for me. I have had my fair share of not so great guys and some great guys just not great for me guys. That is until Frankie :)
So, yes trying on dresses and thinking about my wedding Saturday in such a real way was definitely a surreal moment for me. It was also a kick in the butt moment as well. My mom and my sister took pictures of me in every dress I tried on and looking at myself in those pictures was like someone finally hit me over the head and said "look at yourself, you look horrible."
I am not just being mean to myself and having a bad body image like so many people do these days, especially young people; I just know when I look and feel my best and it is definitely, without a doubt, not now! These pictures have been like a gift from God, telling me to take control of myself and fix myself. I do realize that sounds really dramatic. However, I also know that from a doctor's standpoint I would be considered overweight. There are some people who are constantly saying "you look good" and "you don't need to lose anything" which frankly makes me mad and hurts my feelings. I don't look good and quit telling me I do. There are also people who say "you've gained a lot of weight" and "you better hurry up and lose weight before you get fat" which hurts my feels as well.
In the past when I've been all about losing weight and getting in shape its really been about vanity reasons and my appearance. This time it is different. I mean of course I want to look good, especially for my wedding day, but that is not what is really driving me to get healthy. My wedding day is driving me to lose weight naturally. What comes after the wedding is what is driving me to get healthy. I don't feel healthy. I feel heavy and bloated and yucky about 90% of the time. Not only does that make me feel gross but it also scares me. Me and Frankie want kids. Frankie really wants kids and I know he will be such an incredible dad. I am worried that at this weight and feeling this unhealthy will make it hard for me to get pregnant. And lets be honest, we can't wait too long because neither one of us are spring chickens. (haha I made myself chuckle a little bit at that) I have this really can't kick it strange feeling that I am going to have a hard time getting pregnant. My parents had a hard time but my sister never really did with both of her boys. I can't afford to wait years and years to get pregnant because we aren't that young.
I am hoping and feeling that if I change my habits around and make myself a healthier weight and all around person that I won't have as hard as a time as I think I will. So, on that note I am trying to best to make better choices when it comes to food. I whole-heartedly believe that losing weight is 80/20. Nutrition and diet is 80% of it and exercise is 20%. I enjoy exercising but I want to see results so that means I am going to have to eat better. In the past I would get really crazy and decide that I was going to cut out all kinds of things and eat clean which works for a lot of people but I would also fall off my little clean eating wagon. So... I am going to approach it like the 80/20 rule. I will make healthy eating decisions 80% of the week and allow myself 20% to fall back on. That way I know I am free to still indulge a little bit but just a little bit.
This morning I am off to a good start. I went to the gym and did 30 full minutes of cardio switching the resistance up on the elliptical machine and also switching up going forwards and backwards. That helps me not get bored and it also helps my heart rate change (almost like an interval workout which is good for fat-loss) Plus I did about 20 to 30 minutes working abs and shoulders. For breakfast I made a smoothie!! Very different for me. I found the recipe on one of my favorite blogs and I actually liked it but I did not like the banana taste to it so I will try to tweak it to make it work for me.
Here's to a new view point of getting healthy... :)
Monday, June 17, 2013
We're Going to Try This Again...
The last time I wrote anything on my blog was in January of 2012. I really don't know what possessed me to start a blog in the middle of 3 jobs but needless to say I didn't really keep up with it. I was working at Gordon, going to school, working at the church and student teaching! I was busy.
Fast forward to a little more than a year later and I am out of school, teaching Pre-K at the primary school here in Barnesville and big news....I'm Engaged!!!! :) Super excited about everything that is going on in my life.
I met Frankie after student teaching was finished and I was back to parapro-ing for my kindergarten classroom. We went on our first date to the Braves game and we have been together ever since. I am going to try and post some of my favorite things about Frankie later on in some different posts. Anyways, once me and Frankie really got together and comfortable around each other the weight came piling on. It is what I like to call my "happy weight" because I have been so happy lately. Well... I am still happy but I'm ready to lose the weight.
Even in my last post over a year ago I was uncomfortable with my weight, and trust me it's a lot more now! I really enjoy working out but I do not enjoy eating right. I am super motivated right now though because we are going to be taking engagement pictures sometime in August hopefully so I want to look better for all things wedding.
I follow a lot of different blogs and some are healthy living blogs so I'm hoping I can use this blog to kind of keep track of what I'm eating and doing exercise wise. Here is to losing weight and getting in shape! :)
----This morning I went to the gym and did a cardio workout on the treadmill for 20 minutes which consisted of walking 2 min and running 1 min. I was definitely sweaty when I got finished. I then focused on my lower body. My favorite exercises right now are the kickbacks and ad and abductors on the cable. So far my eating today has consisted of a small bowl of cheerios. I'm starting the Monday on the right track!----
Now, I'm off to get ready and continue the moving out process. (I'm leaving Gordon and moving back in with my parents before the wedding - It should be an experience :))
Fast forward to a little more than a year later and I am out of school, teaching Pre-K at the primary school here in Barnesville and big news....I'm Engaged!!!! :) Super excited about everything that is going on in my life.
I met Frankie after student teaching was finished and I was back to parapro-ing for my kindergarten classroom. We went on our first date to the Braves game and we have been together ever since. I am going to try and post some of my favorite things about Frankie later on in some different posts. Anyways, once me and Frankie really got together and comfortable around each other the weight came piling on. It is what I like to call my "happy weight" because I have been so happy lately. Well... I am still happy but I'm ready to lose the weight.
Even in my last post over a year ago I was uncomfortable with my weight, and trust me it's a lot more now! I really enjoy working out but I do not enjoy eating right. I am super motivated right now though because we are going to be taking engagement pictures sometime in August hopefully so I want to look better for all things wedding.
I follow a lot of different blogs and some are healthy living blogs so I'm hoping I can use this blog to kind of keep track of what I'm eating and doing exercise wise. Here is to losing weight and getting in shape! :)
----This morning I went to the gym and did a cardio workout on the treadmill for 20 minutes which consisted of walking 2 min and running 1 min. I was definitely sweaty when I got finished. I then focused on my lower body. My favorite exercises right now are the kickbacks and ad and abductors on the cable. So far my eating today has consisted of a small bowl of cheerios. I'm starting the Monday on the right track!----
Now, I'm off to get ready and continue the moving out process. (I'm leaving Gordon and moving back in with my parents before the wedding - It should be an experience :))
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Pushing Through...
I'm extremely tired, have school work, not in the best of moods, ate way too much for supper... this afternoon has taken a turn for the yucks and blahs - but! I'm getting ready to do my very short but intense 20 minute workout. Hoping it will give me some energy.... :/ we shall see.
tomorrow is my weigh day and after what I ate for supper I don't see me losing any weight this week, but if not there is always next week. I'm pushing through and doing it anyway....
(even though you can not talk to to and give me instant motivation, this helped :)
tomorrow is my weigh day and after what I ate for supper I don't see me losing any weight this week, but if not there is always next week. I'm pushing through and doing it anyway....
(even though you can not talk to to and give me instant motivation, this helped :)
Monday, January 16, 2012
A Little Bit of Everything
Student Teaching
It is so nice to have days off - especially when I am starting to teach my first subject tomorrow. :) I have been getting ready for everything that my class will be doing. I'm a little nervous but slowly feeling like they are my class too. At first I didn't really want to say anything to them just because I felt like I was just a visitor but I'm getting more and more comfortable in that area.
Tomorrow I start my first subject, writing. I actually like writing, well not really, it's hard to explain. Anyways... my class will be working on persuasive writing. I have what is hopefully something fun for them to do. I am used to kindergarten so I am very used to breaking things down to make something as simple and easy for the students. I plan on continuing to do that with 3rd grade. Even though they do not need things broken down so much any more I kinda feel like if I break it down a few times they will grasp the concept easier and not have as many problems down the road.
So far I have enjoyed 3rd grade. I definitely miss kindergarten, but this is excatly what student teaching is supposed to help me with right? Kinda figure out things and learn to teach different subjects and age groups. I definitley miss my kindergarten class. My last day my teacher bought a cookie cake for me and had the students sign their names to signs she made. It was so sweet and at the end of the day when they all ran up to me to give me a hug I almost cried. :)
Exercise/Nutrition Goals
I finally came up with a training goal and weight loss goal for the month of January. lol Better late than never right? My training goal is to be able to do 15 male push-ups by January 31st. As of today i can do 11... and it is tough. My weight loss goal for the month is to lose 8 to 10 pounds. I've lost five so I think that is a reasonable goal... we will see. My goal for this week is to, hmmm, no soft drinks. I've had I think 3 diet cokes lately and I'm going to have to nip that real quick. I also have a goal to do better on the weekends. A friend of mine told me that she has always been interested in exercise and was doing good with nutrition except on the weekends and she realized that she was ruining all of her hard work from the week. That one is going to be exteremely tough for me but I will do my best to work it out.
Oh, on pinterest I found this 14 day Abs challenge. I'm going to start it tonight and see what I think, or if I see any results.... If I notice any changes I will relay the challenge to you.
Me
A huge part of my personality is music. It is probably corny to say but music helps me get through some really tough tough parts of life. I think music is one reason I love the show One Tree Hill so much. They have great music. Anyways, as you know I have had some drama in my life really since this summer and as much as I want to let it go and move on it is hard for me to do that. Its not settled and I'm going to have to face the fact that it never will be. I think it's finally closed but not settled. Anyways, this Sunday at church we sang a new song called From the Inside Out, by Hillsong United. Just listening to the words ( I couldn't sing it...because it made me cry) made me feel like God was just telling me that although I do not understand why everything has happened the way it has, and that some things come and go, or some things may fade away that He is never changing. He is always there. I felt like He wasn't trying to tell me that everything happens for a reason and He had a plan (which I know He does but its just not the time to hear that right now) He was just trying to tell me that He has my back. And it just made me love Him so much. Anyways, I'm going to try to put a youtube of the song and lyrics up but forgive me if it doesn't work.
It is so nice to have days off - especially when I am starting to teach my first subject tomorrow. :) I have been getting ready for everything that my class will be doing. I'm a little nervous but slowly feeling like they are my class too. At first I didn't really want to say anything to them just because I felt like I was just a visitor but I'm getting more and more comfortable in that area.
Tomorrow I start my first subject, writing. I actually like writing, well not really, it's hard to explain. Anyways... my class will be working on persuasive writing. I have what is hopefully something fun for them to do. I am used to kindergarten so I am very used to breaking things down to make something as simple and easy for the students. I plan on continuing to do that with 3rd grade. Even though they do not need things broken down so much any more I kinda feel like if I break it down a few times they will grasp the concept easier and not have as many problems down the road.
So far I have enjoyed 3rd grade. I definitely miss kindergarten, but this is excatly what student teaching is supposed to help me with right? Kinda figure out things and learn to teach different subjects and age groups. I definitley miss my kindergarten class. My last day my teacher bought a cookie cake for me and had the students sign their names to signs she made. It was so sweet and at the end of the day when they all ran up to me to give me a hug I almost cried. :)
Exercise/Nutrition Goals
I finally came up with a training goal and weight loss goal for the month of January. lol Better late than never right? My training goal is to be able to do 15 male push-ups by January 31st. As of today i can do 11... and it is tough. My weight loss goal for the month is to lose 8 to 10 pounds. I've lost five so I think that is a reasonable goal... we will see. My goal for this week is to, hmmm, no soft drinks. I've had I think 3 diet cokes lately and I'm going to have to nip that real quick. I also have a goal to do better on the weekends. A friend of mine told me that she has always been interested in exercise and was doing good with nutrition except on the weekends and she realized that she was ruining all of her hard work from the week. That one is going to be exteremely tough for me but I will do my best to work it out.
Oh, on pinterest I found this 14 day Abs challenge. I'm going to start it tonight and see what I think, or if I see any results.... If I notice any changes I will relay the challenge to you.
Me
A huge part of my personality is music. It is probably corny to say but music helps me get through some really tough tough parts of life. I think music is one reason I love the show One Tree Hill so much. They have great music. Anyways, as you know I have had some drama in my life really since this summer and as much as I want to let it go and move on it is hard for me to do that. Its not settled and I'm going to have to face the fact that it never will be. I think it's finally closed but not settled. Anyways, this Sunday at church we sang a new song called From the Inside Out, by Hillsong United. Just listening to the words ( I couldn't sing it...because it made me cry) made me feel like God was just telling me that although I do not understand why everything has happened the way it has, and that some things come and go, or some things may fade away that He is never changing. He is always there. I felt like He wasn't trying to tell me that everything happens for a reason and He had a plan (which I know He does but its just not the time to hear that right now) He was just trying to tell me that He has my back. And it just made me love Him so much. Anyways, I'm going to try to put a youtube of the song and lyrics up but forgive me if it doesn't work.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Weigh Day
Well.... I have lost 5 pounds total since December 29th. That has been two weeks ago. 3 pounds the first week and 2 this past week. I am very pleased with that because I am back to my pre-holidays weight. My clothes fit better and that is what counts the most :) I've even had two people tell me I look like I've lost weight. Yay :)
My goal for this week is to not eat fast food.... I'm struggling with that right now. I am enjoying eating healthy but I'm just tired when I get home from work and I don't want to cook but tonight I'm going to eat a clean breakfast meal which is one of my favorites.... I will keep you posted!
My goal for this week is to not eat fast food.... I'm struggling with that right now. I am enjoying eating healthy but I'm just tired when I get home from work and I don't want to cook but tonight I'm going to eat a clean breakfast meal which is one of my favorites.... I will keep you posted!
Monday, January 9, 2012
No More Drama In My Life
When I was in high school the song No More Drama by Mary J. Blige was one of my favorites. I had tons and tons of drama! Well drama had tons of me. I did not feed into it or respond to the people who clearly hated me I just ignored. Because of all of the mess in high school I hate drama now. That's one reason I love little kids so much, they don't have drama other than someone won't be their friend and 3 minutes later you see them running around together. But, apparently drama loves me! It just follows me around. Yes there are times that I make mistakes or bad decisions but never with a bad intent or never with the intent to create drama. Sometimes being nice and having a big heart gets me in a lot of trouble. I am back to having tons of drama, which is just flat out embarrassing because I am way too old for that mess.
The point is, it's a new year. I decided back at the beginning of the new year that I wanted to have a new years resolution to focus on me more. I have a hard time sometimes feeling "trapped" in my town and feeling alone and that I don't have anyone period that is my person. So my new year's resolution is to focus on me and being happy and content with my life no matter where I am or who is, or in my case, isn't in my life.
And by coming to this decision I also realized that I do have a "my person". My Savior. I've said before that I'm not a good judge of character and most if not all the guys who have been in my life are just plain not good guys. Well how it hit me that I have a friend who gets excited every time He hears from me. He will never be disrespectful to me. He will never put me down. He will never lie to me. He loves me more than anyone else possibly could. He will never flake out on me or say he is going to be there and disappear. How could I not see before that He is "my person"? He's wonderful and awesome and He wants to absolute best for me. He will never take advantage of me. How great is that? So I am focusing on God this year. Keeping God first in my life and trusting Him with whatever may come my way. My goal this year, no matter what or who comes my way, is to focus on my life and my relationship with the best friend I could possibly have.
On a side note of my progress with the eating and exercising. My weigh day is Wednesday. I weighed the 29th of December and that was my starting weight. I started Jan. 1st and weighed again on Jan. 4th. I didn't update that weight on here because it hadn't been a full week since I had started my new lifestyle. However, I was happy with what the scale said on the 4th and today being the 9th, I am happy with the way my clothes feel. I will try my best to write Wednesday and let you all know how much I have lost and see if I met my goal. Fingers crossed! :)
Please pray for the drama to go away from my life. I just want to be left alone. Please pray that when I do start feeling lonely that I always know that I have someone in my life who loves me more that anyone else and who never leaves my side. Thanks!
The point is, it's a new year. I decided back at the beginning of the new year that I wanted to have a new years resolution to focus on me more. I have a hard time sometimes feeling "trapped" in my town and feeling alone and that I don't have anyone period that is my person. So my new year's resolution is to focus on me and being happy and content with my life no matter where I am or who is, or in my case, isn't in my life.
And by coming to this decision I also realized that I do have a "my person". My Savior. I've said before that I'm not a good judge of character and most if not all the guys who have been in my life are just plain not good guys. Well how it hit me that I have a friend who gets excited every time He hears from me. He will never be disrespectful to me. He will never put me down. He will never lie to me. He loves me more than anyone else possibly could. He will never flake out on me or say he is going to be there and disappear. How could I not see before that He is "my person"? He's wonderful and awesome and He wants to absolute best for me. He will never take advantage of me. How great is that? So I am focusing on God this year. Keeping God first in my life and trusting Him with whatever may come my way. My goal this year, no matter what or who comes my way, is to focus on my life and my relationship with the best friend I could possibly have.
On a side note of my progress with the eating and exercising. My weigh day is Wednesday. I weighed the 29th of December and that was my starting weight. I started Jan. 1st and weighed again on Jan. 4th. I didn't update that weight on here because it hadn't been a full week since I had started my new lifestyle. However, I was happy with what the scale said on the 4th and today being the 9th, I am happy with the way my clothes feel. I will try my best to write Wednesday and let you all know how much I have lost and see if I met my goal. Fingers crossed! :)
Please pray for the drama to go away from my life. I just want to be left alone. Please pray that when I do start feeling lonely that I always know that I have someone in my life who loves me more that anyone else and who never leaves my side. Thanks!
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